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I’m feeling quite ambivalent right now. I think that’s just another word for feeling insecure. We all have those times, some of us more than others but mine stems from impending change in our lives.
DD will be graduating in just a little over a month from now and will usher in a new phase of life. For her, I’m sure it’s exciting. I remember it was for me to think I was finally going to be out of school. It was also a little intimidating for me because I really didn’t know what I was going to do.
Now, on the other side of things (the parent side), I realize that she’s going from child in the home to transitioning into adulthood. I’m not quite sure what to do with that. Before I could tell her what I thought and expect her to at least act like she was listening. Now, I must wait for her to seek out my counsel.
Before I knew she’d be home for meals, now…. friends seem to take precedence. My ambivalence, I must confess, sometimes comes out in ugly ways. Part of me wants to hold on to her tight…. the other part knows I must let go …. I must let her now find her way. My prayer is that she will desire to seek my counsel….but I must not expect her to. My prayer is that she will be wise enough to see that some of us have gone her way before and now may have some excellent (well at least good) counsel to guide her and come ask for it…. but I cannot expect that.
Graduation…. an exciting time of change and yet, an end of a season of life. My prayer is that she will allow the Lord to be her Guide, for if He is, she cannot go wrong.
Until next time, love God, love others, and be there when they need you no matter how you feel.
